I've had a feeling for a while now that Yukon, Oklahoma wouldn't be home for long. We love our family that's here and our jobs were such a blessing, but we really did have a strong desire to move on.
It is so trivial, but it really was a struggle for me. I depend on stability- without it I feel stressed and irritable. Because we were not "settling down", I really felt unstable. I didn't know enough about my future to feel secure.
I wondered if it would ever happen... if God would ever pave a path for us to move on. And if he was going to pave a path... where would it lead to... and when would it happen??? My "5 year plan" from high school graduation had run out.. and so far the plan hadn't even played out according to plan! Where was my life headed? (Oh, the mid-20's crises!)
I'm not sure if you've ever seen the movie THE KID. It is seriously one of the sweetest movies ever created. And I kept picturing the scene where little Bruce Willis meets up with big Bruce Willis and can't believe that he doesn't fly jets, isn't married, and doesn't have a dog! In his eyes- he becomes a big loser!
We gets these goals in our mind and when none of it happens we wonder where God is and why he isn't helping us accomplish these things! I'd set out to do some pretty good things! Why wasn't God letting me do them!?
"For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."
~ Jeremiah 29:11
My favorite part of this verse is "plans I have for you". It tells me that God has plans for me. I don't need to make a 5 year plan for my life, because God's got my life time plan already figured out!
So without a plan, what can I do?
"Taste and see that the Lord is good. Oh, the joys of those who take refuge in him!"
~ Psalm 34:8
I can focus on God and embrace His presence. He is constantly there. His will for me is good. If I focus on Him he WILL guide me along his "pre-paved" path.
If you've talked to me much, you've heard me tell of the awesome way God led us to Houston! If you haven't heard about it, I would love to share it with you sometime!
God is ALIVE and dwelling in us! As you approach this Easter weekend, reflect on his presence in your life. And remember, not for a moment will he forsake us.