My CD player/ radio in my car died.
That's right... it died. It plays no longer. My drives are silent. I have no music. My life is but a dark and empty cave. It is gray, there is no color. It reminds me of a song I sang in choir my senior year of high school.
"I dreamed a dream. A silent dream. Of a land not far away. Where no birds sang. No steeples rang. And tear drops fell like rain." (It's talking of a land with no music... in case you missed that)
All right... so maybe I'm being a bit dramatic. But I'm the girl that can't stand to go anywhere without the radio on... or a CD playing. My parents are the same way... always had music playing in the car... and we jammed to it loud. Music in the car---- that's my thing.
And now I have none.
Remember how I said that I was getting into listening to Christian music? I miss doing that. I tried singing songs myself... but it wasn't the same thing!
Then I remember the Lord gives and takes away...but blessed be the name. I need to be joyful. That's my goal this year. To be joyful in all things.
So I started praying during my driving time. Outloud. No Shame. It's pretty therapeutic actually. It's like I have a moment to think clearly and pray about things on my heart. Maybe God was trying to tell me that I needed to talk to Him more.
My drives can still be boring, and no doubt my 5 min drive to work feels like 15 min. I'm finding joy in praying to God during that time.
So if you see a gal talking to herself as she's driving her old beat up Ford.... it's probably me. And I'm trying to create the joy!